The Art of Being Alone.

Hey there blog.

Thanks for being here for me no matter what.

Geez. I felt like crying right now. After all these days...words and even emojis couldn't explain my feelings. So, tonight, finally I get the answer to all of my worries.

Okay, first of all, I wanted to dedicate a thank you note for the only guy that had successfully giving me a life full with experiences for these past three to four years, I guess (honestly, it is quite exhausted to count all the days that we were being together cause I am totally sucks at calculation and the fact that I stop to appreciate the length of journey to be in loved with a guy cause I had finally came to a conclusion that, a male is always a male no matter who they were). Life sucks anyway, for me. 

It's like, most of the persons I loved were being taken away from me and I couldn't have any single feelings (but that's okay, I am getting used to it).

Second of all, thank you for letting me go forever (which means, I am now free to be with someone that I will love endlessly, I mean, not that endlessly, it is just that, I am a person full with love and I couldn't bear to keep this love for myself and I am truly have the needs to share this love to the one who really appreciate my presence no matter what). Omg this is extremely sad.

Third of all, I am so thankful that now, I can move forward and live the life that I wanted - to be like a normal kid.

Last but not least, I am now able to cook for myself and it is pretty awesome! 

Let's check this out!




Geez...I am so not having an imagination. 
I mean, just look at my 'art of culinary'.
As long as it tasted good, then I'm cool with it.
It's like, it is not a big deal right?



Okay, now my blog post is turning into something more interesting cause I am utilising the voice notes application! Yay!

So yeah, when life gives me a lemon, I'll make a lemonade. In fact, lemon is good for detox! Everyone is quite aware of this.

Thanks for reading and listening!

Have a good day.

Yours truly,
Sharifah. 

Mid-Semester Break is Over.

 Geez. 

So, our mid semester break is over and I am finally done re-arranging some furnitures in my bedroom. 

Since I was in boarding school for like 6 years, so now I will start to live as if I am in a 'bujang' sort of bedroom (ya, my daughter isn't here with me) and I am fully utilising some of my previous wedding gifts, of course the rice cooker and the pinggan mangkuk as well. Will be giving the coffee maker to my former husband since I am not drinking coffee forever. 

Will post some pictures soon (no promises) cause we only have two months to finally graduate!

Goodbye and take care, peeps!

*the struggle is real to finally experimenting some basic and simple recipes. LOL!


Honest Review: Real Bubbee Breast Pump.

 In short, the breast pump works totally fine and perfect for me.

Let's not blame the device but learn on how to tackle our personal breast feeding issues.

That's all.

Here is my previous post.

https://sharifamastura.blogspot.com/2017/08/real-bubee-usb-breast-pump.html

Thanks.

p/s: I am a breastfeeding mom for almost 5 months ya.

A Gloomy Month of November.

Hola!

So, it has been quite several months since my last post and now I am too lazy to write actually. Right now, it feels like I am living in a foreign country even though I am back in my bedroom. It is quite strange because all of sudden I have this weird attitude and all the anxieties suddenly haunting me. All the minor sound and so on keep bothering me, such as the normal honking vehicles, the shoveling sounds, vehicle door closing sounds, (Oh my goodness, I am so unreasonable! Did I just failed the reasonable man's test? Being a layman is quite hard but I hope I will slowly adapt to it). Hmm...and the fun part is, the birds chirping sounds.

It's like tweeting my daily activities in such a weird way and it's like transmitting information, I don't know. So funny and quite entertaining. Well, at least I've learned something like, which class of birds that loves to hang around outside of my windows and thinking about their feedings in my place and compared them to the foreign countries for examples, some birds in here do enjoy the paddy field but in reality, birds do eat worms like a chicken for protein? Or...the chickens in here eat corn? I am not sure about the farming thing. Is it? I am not fully aware how does the ecosystem works but I just acknowledge the chain of food in the ecosystem, or should I said, in "our ecosystem". Since I am allergic to cats, and practically failed to take care of pets, so, I guess I just take care for my dried parsley herbs. Well, at least, they smell nice like flowers!...and the best part is, I am having this sanctuary of the neon pothos! (some of us might called them money plant but, as for me, I am quite afraid that, I hope they will still be alive since I had left them for few months since end of June 2020 till around September 2020.

Oh hey, I remember, there's a principle in this Law of Torts that described the issue on "extraordinary sensitivity on the part of the plaintiff". Well, it is quite funny to express that, I am a Malaysia born but deep inside my heart, I really do feel like an alien in here. LOL. (Yeah, all the influences that I had learned from all the stories from the English common law as well and lots of watching movies in HBO, Family Fox, and so on.) In short, I miss my friends in the legal team.

I am in my final semester and to be honest, I feel so stupid it hurts. HAHA. Maybe I just miss my little angel...she's changed to this super-girly tiny toddler-mode. She's even forget about the things that I taught her before. It's quite sad and frustrated actually, because I really wanted to raise her as if we were in the United Kingdom or the United States of America. Nah...I am such a mess person. So, let your "so-called brother" to decide.

Okay, back to the main purpose of writing this post, I am actually sad to leave this law school and it is extremely and painfully tragic to be an adult after graduating. Let me put an emoji to describe the sadness.--> 😭 (I think an emoji is enough cause I am still exaggerating my emotions and still ranting like a kid HAHA) - well, each and everyone in my circle actually quite aware of this fact. LOL.

So, the thing here that I want to confess is that...I am still thinking of how to make money after graduating, so that I can feed myself first. (Dude, I need to feed myself first lah, and successfully take care of my health, my body and my rationale thinking as well.) Shoot! Now I have "the dude" in me, previously it was a coach. Now, it is a "dude". I'm started to live like a dude now. Well, hats-off to me! Now, I am officially a layman, I guess.

Okay, enough talking. I have piles of files like a mystery case files...to be done. I'm done for today and I think I need a boyfriend to help me cure this 'ranting spoiled brat' attitude mode. HARHAR.

Maybe it's true, like Kurt says, "Maybe I should just watch SpongeBob." (Is it SpongeBob or cartoon?) Lucky to have these Smile Squad to cheer up my day. 

Well, I need to take a shower and enjoy the evening view outside. Oh hey, I have a mini-garden! Let me share with all of you...

That is my dried parsley and...I left the teabags inside of the container since, I am feeling penthouse vibes.

These two, remains two and three leaves since I did separated the roots.

...and finally, my study from home sanctuary...it does look like, a total mess for an adult. 


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So, I hope all these will ended soon and, I am sort of needed a serious break or a major vacation or maybe, applying for a job...as a waitress? Taking orders? Well, I guess, maybe I should be working in the island as...a waitress! Yay!...or some basic job in Perhentian Island of course! 

Who wants to be a lawyer, anyway? :p

(Belum jadi lawyer, I dah feel threatened!) LOL.

Till then, goodbye!

sha._

Happy 2020 Y'all!

Hellooooooo world!

I am back! Well, the planned to be such a professional blogger has officially ended. I am back in my old blog which I really missed writing leisurely. Teehee!

I missed this blog so much and, by watching 'Istanbul Aku Datang' on Malaysia TV3, I decided to keep this blog publicly. Yay!

Setelah membaca satu Alasan Penghakiman dengan 42 halaman, maka, it's time to blog on our Wawasan 2020!

Siapa sangka aku hidup lagi? LOL.

So, I had nothing much to say about this 2020. It's just that, I am currently waiting for the LLB offer letter issued by UiTM. Fingers crescent.

I had officially obtained my official transcript for Bachelor of Legal Studies (Hons). CGPA ke laut tu dah pasti. Maka, dengan CGPA yang sebegitu, sampai terlupa nak register for convocation ceremony. LOL.

Selamat tinggal outfit konvo.

I am working on my research online business site. Lots of ideas to do but so little time to execute.

Dah nak hampir tahun 2020, baru aku kenal apa itu Kapten Pisang. HAHAHAHA.

So, macam ni rupanya pisang goreng yang dah di modified.

Walau apa pun, my first attempt, sangat tidak mengecewakan.


So, for New Year's Resolution, I don't really have any. It's just that, I had to accept the fact that, I am a single mom plus, a stay-at-home mom. So, I need to focus on being a stay-at-home mom and doing freelance paralegal services as a part-time job. It is hard I have to admit, emotionally and physically. I have to let go of that big dream of returning to work as usual years before and focus on how to manage my time wisely at home.

It is very challenging actually to manage my time to suit with my little one's. As she grows older, she barely sleeps during the day. So, I need to entertain her needs. Baru nak rehat, dia pun buang air besar. Huhuhuhuhuhu. Frust sungguh bila perkara ni berlaku. 

...and I gain weight like, 4 to 5 kilo! Shoot!

No worry, I already ordered a backup plan. HAHA.

Oh ya, tahniah untuk Sally sebab she's married!!! I will share this soon.

Last but not least, Happy 2020 semua!!!

XOXO,
Sharifa!

Bye theblackbracelet! I'm back in here...