Maid of Honor

Hey there.

First of all, I want to highlight the fact that, this post was supposedly carved in my blog few months ago but I failed to carve it on time. It's my bad.

Secondly, I want to highlight that, I still felt appreciated that I was chosen as the Maid of Honor to my best friend. I mean, wow...someone did acknowledged my presence as a true friend. Thanks Ida.

Thirdly, in April 2016, my best friend, met her since I was in college, got married. Congratulations (but I still owed her, a wedding gift actually). :p

Details:-

Okay, so...I was being told that she's going to get married and I was very delighted to offer myself to be her Maid of Honor...and she said YES! (OMG, tak pernah jadi pengapit!)

Pengalaman jadi pengapit...bukanlah semudah yang disangka. Haha. I thought it was just 'kipas kipas' the pengantin. I was totally wrong. Luckily that her husband's brother ada. So, I was just following him in performing our Pengapit's duty. Well done, I've done such a good job! Haha. (What a mess).

Somehow, it's an honor to be a Pengapit to my best friend. It's like, I'm part of her family. Thanks so much Ida. 

Marriage is happiness. The joy of celebrating the love between two human being.

Just one thing...that I couldn't resist. The sad feeling in my heart, that I'm going to lose another best friend. That moment when the day comes, it's like, so fast that I felt something had been taken away from me. Something priceless. Something that I really love was taken away. 

I never felt this way before until my sister got married. I felt so happy when she got married but then, I had to accept that, I couldn't reach her when I need her the most. The moment when I was eager to share about my daily life, gossiping, bitching around together LOL, entering her bedroom like there's no boundaries between us...suddenly it was being taken away.

Since that day, I felt so lost. 

It was such a very hard time since we lost our beloved grandfather. I still couldn't move on. I still miss him a lot. We'd been visited him in the hospital...and thought that we would lost him yet it wasn't the time. He left us unexpectedly. It was the first day of Ramadhan. (I don't know why, I still miss him so much).

Then, my sister got married. I lost another best friend.

And...few months later, my best friend, Ida got married as well. I lost another important person in my life. 

It was such a very hard time...and the hardest thing is, we just lost one of our most good friend, Asri.

He left us so soon that, I will never get to invite him on my wedding day. (Tarik nafas dalam dalam...)

I couldn't imagine how am I going to live again if I lost my mom and dad. 

So, it's true that, nothing last forever except The Almighty. 


It was such a hard time ya. I miss them so much it hurts.

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Just want to share the moment. <3


















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Till then, may your marriage will always been showered with full of joy and blessed. #idazaim

Thank you for our friendship. 

With love,
Sharifah Mastura

Malam Raya 2016

Hi there. 
It's been such a very long time since my last post ya. Well, I guess I'm going to start writing again. As usual. Thanks to Digi, I've updated my internet plan to 10gb a month! Now, I'm free to blog!

So, whats up? It's Hari Raya just few hours in time and I'm still awake!

Guess what I'm doing tonight?

1. Breaking fast with my family
2. Watching some movies. - Zootopia
3. Folding all my clothes!
4. Watching Gossip Girl online.
5. Can't sleep and I decided to update my blog.

This year will be such an ordinary Eid. Honestly, I'm not going to go nuts or even excited to celebrate eid since my grandfather passed away. I miss him so much. 

Well, at least I still have my parents, brothers and sister with me. Oh, I have a brother in law too this year! (Maybe I'm going to have a husband next year!) Ha ha. Who cares?

Seriously, I miss my grandfather so much. Life goes on, right? So...I have to accept it.

(Suddenly, his calling me and I felt so sleepy right now.) :)

This is what I'm talking about. #malamraya28thn

Well, I miss my childhood Malam Raya where my cousins and I were playing the 'bunga api', 'mercun' and watching the Hari Raya movie...the tv commercial and repeat them again and again. Now, most of them grown up, my sister is married, we are still at home during Malam Raya, no children playing around, just a silent night and I'm sitting in my bedroom alone. 

I guess it's time to go to bed. Goodnite.

p/s : I'm sort of keeping my mouth shut. You know, it's so hard to keep a secret and you just have to keep it for the rest of your life! I mean, just few days ahead. Phew. Trying so hard not to blew up anything. :D

Till then, Selamat Hari Raya!

Just want to share some of my last year pictures here.

















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Maaf Zahir & Batin.