Hey peeps.
I am so glad that I have finally find the way on how to express my current situation for these past few months. I have to say that I am emotionally unstable cause there are so much pain that I keep inside since I don't even remember.
A divorce is seriously uneasy but today, I believe that I need to accept the fact that, every single year from today, I will definitely remember all the pain and hurtful memories. I keep blaming myself for not being the best version of me in every tough situations. People around might think I am a total freak cause I am not used to mix around like a normal person does. Well, I couldn't blame myself for that as it is my liberty and freedom to be me, just like Katie and Tully (Firefly Lane).
So yeah, for these past few weeks, I've been searching for these 'hit the spot' situation. It turns out I had a few dramas to suit my current emotions. Alhamdulillah.. it is just a way to survive in this tough world of mine. Thanks to Netflix tv series, Virgin River... I love all of you so much and thanks for helping me to grow as I am not used to discuss my feelings with others. It is just that, I had the privilege of solving my own 'cases' through available sources that I currently have.
So here comes the verdict, I am decided to end this blog and to start writing again (maybe) in my new blog that I had pledge to utilised it after I left Perhentian Island during 2019.
Goodbye to all the good and hideous memories here.
Guess what? Here's a song to the end of this 'establishment'.
*A major thanks to the new updated google function that allows me to search this one vintage song through humming. Lol. I am destined to attach myself to such a powerful lyric performed by The Rasmus - aside from the well known Welcome To My Life, Basket Case and no offence, my dear Avril Lavigne, the gorgeous I'm With You.
So yeah, till we meet again in another platform. Take care and have a good life.
Time to Burn *theRasmus
The fear of the dark, tears me apart
Won't leave me alone and time keeps running out
Just one more life
I'm so sick and tired of singing the blues (my fav part❤️🩹)
I should turn my life around
Tell me why do I feel this way, all my life
I've been standing on the borderline,
Too many bridges burned, too many lies I've heard
Had a life but I can't go back, can't do that
It will never be the same again, and I know
I don't have any time to burn.
They follow me home, disturbing my sleep
But I'll find a place, a place where they cannot find me
And maybe I'm lost, and maybe I'm scared,
But too many times (my fav part❤️🩹)
I've closed the doors behind me.
Tell me why do I feel this way, all my life
I've been standing on the borderline,
Too many bridges burned, too many lies I've heard
Had a life but I can't go back, can't do that
It will never be the same again, and I know I don't have any time to burn (fuck you hideous and bitter bitches, indeed this is personal one on one).
Leave it all behind,
Cross the borderline,
Face the truth, don't have any time to... have any time to burn!
Tell me why do I feel this way, all my life
I've been standing on the borderline,
Too many bridges burned, too many lies I've heard
Had a life but I can't go back, can't do that
It will never be the same again,
Gotta go cause I know I don't have any time to burn.
Tell me why do I feel this way, all my life
I've been standing on the borderline,
Too many bridges burned, too many lies I've heard
Had a life but I can't go back, can't do that
It will never be the same again, and I know I don't have any time to... have any time to burn.
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And...all the very best to all my girls~ love ya.
...and Kak Leha, you will always forever stay in my heart.
