we used to know each other but now we aren't

i just wanted to say to someone i know years ago, that, i'm giving up on us both. it's not that i hadn't try to go to the next level but, it seems like we aren't meant to be together no matter how hard i'd tried. maybe we are on a different page.

i thought we are going to be such a great friend to each other. but now i know that, you were just pretending for all these time to get the influenced and power to be in charged. i'm sorry. i've deleted your contact number for good. all of your saying aren't the best at all! 

it seems like you were stabbing behind my back knowing that i could rely on you. go on with your own agenda. i'm here just wanna live a great life with my own future.

well, then. we are no longer a friend or anything started from today. i'm no longer know you, before or perhaps, today.

i don't think i should feel sorry for the things i've decided. if you wanted to play a police guy, trying to intimidated me instead of discarding all the things i said and you didn't even listen for who i am now, then go ahead!

i don't want to thank you for the things that you've done all, are goes against me. never a single thing that makes me grow. i hope you will succeed in whatever you wanted to become for your own future.

honestly, it hurts so bad to see that, you didn't trust me at all for who i am now. well i think you are mature enough to choose your own path.

i hope we will never meet again for the rest of our lives.

please do not mention it again, that i've been rejecting us twice. i'm giving you time to think, to decide. you choose the wrong one and truly discard me without identify who is the true person who've been trying so hard behind the screen to tell you my own story. instead, you keep supporting your own people, your own colleague. 

i think we aren't losing each other. we are being too selfish with each other. 

i'm not going to follow your stand. i know where do i belongs to. i've made my own decision now. 

thanks for being such a good listener for a day. the rest of the whole months? you are just living in your own imagination. 

it seems like, you love to play a lie instead of living to be honest to each other. i think i've been true to you for all these time. you know the truth. but all you do were trying to discard me and never listen. 

too bad, you were just looking for a cast in your own agenda to gain popularity. when i'm here, trying look for a good friend to each other and be a reliable one to each other. 

i shouldn't feel sorry for anyone.

good bye forever.

your own enemy,

Sharifah Mastura binti Syed Mohd Shah

881130-01-6696

email: sha301188@gmail.com

whatsapp: sha301188 +60164432077

instagram: sha301188

facebook: /sharifahmastura.smshah

p.s still looking for intern for the rest of your own life? well, keep looking cause i'm no longer interested to be part of them. i think you are very old now to even get a girlfriend. you aren't playing any puzzles. you are losing your own focus at the first place. go ahead with your own t games. i'm no longer interested to read all about you anymore. 

all you cared is, trying to make your own circle a goody good one and dismissing me all at once! you never try to call me or even replied to my text. you were silent, you took all my belongings and put on someone else, a clown instead. i don't need you as my fashion advised or even as a person who were trying so hard to shape me according to your own 'kayu pengukur'. i don't have any helper to help me raising my little boy at home. i'm doing all the things by myself. and i choose to not looking sharp and looking good? is it a failure to you? for me, i'm the best mother i could ever be. let me decide on what type of a mother i wanted to be. yes, the mother that doesn't have to impress people around me. 

How glad I am now for never had a single picture with you, for the rest of my life!

keep continue with your own 'we do not know her, she couldn't be identified, etc' kind of attitude!

Well now, I do not know all of you!

Level 69, Tower 1! 

(menara mimbar masjid kot)

From: Suzleena Bt Samsudin (SVP_LEGAL/PETH) 
Sent: Monday, September 29, 2014 11:38 AM
To: Ahmad Faidz Hamzan (LEGAL/PETH); Emy Hadida Bt M Noor (LEGAL/PETH); Kamarularifin Azman (LEGAL/PETH); M Fairuz B Rosli A (LEGAL/PETH); M Rizzuan B Ramly (LEGAL/PETH); Roslan B Kamarudin (LEGAL/PETH); Jamaliah Bt Abidin (LEGAL/PETH); Zainal Abidin B Sedin (LEGAL/PETH)
Subject: THANK YOU
Importance: High 

PS: Please share this with Mastura.

till then, may both of us have such a beautiful future and please stay away from my little daughter! you have no such right to be in her life whatsoever! let her be anything she wanted to become. i hope she wouldn't be your next victim. 

"please share this with Mastura"

yeah, that was just me. up to a p.s only years ago. that's how they've been treating me till today even when i keep their contact close. 

hmm task simple pun semua yang konon importance high, tak boleh buat, ada hati nak hire aku jadi intern konon! 

for all these months, soalan daripada team dorang, is just "you, you okay ke?" alasan taknak bayar gaji orang, sampai sekarang memasing ni takut kena saman dengan aku. 

ni aku nak bagitahu, aku takde masa nak habiskan waktu or even duit aku untuk saman korang semua yang dah memang selesa abadi duk dalam cubicle yang sama sejak tahun bila korang tak jumpa orang luar selain duk bawah tempurung je bertahun-tahun ek? aku ada gak lah jumpa muka lain-lain orang sepanjang aku hidup sampai sekarang. kesian. 

sekarang, aku pulak tanya diri aku,

who is Mastura? 

dear all,

i've made it!

mastura nric 881130016696

https://simsweb.uitm.edu.my/sportal_app/graduat_search/index.htm

also ended up in here

https://checkstatus.mykasih.net/sara2/checkstatus

well, life can take me wherever i wanted to go. that's funny and it is not a merely co incident. still, i can laugh about it!

yang selalu keluar statement aku tak dapat di identified tu, takpe aku dah identify diri aku sendiri. 

Asrul, please take care of our little daughter, now she is 8 years, 11 months & 26 days old!

never fall for any big company scam trying to ruin freshies! She has much potential, but stay grounded and never trust this big company to make her a star or what. 

Choose your own circle that you already know from the day you start to trust your own company. Shahrul is a true friend of yours. Just stick to him. 

bye!

cheers to forever friendship!

tak payah layan geng yang konon importance terpaling high tu. gas pili meletup kat subang pun dorang belum settle lagi, ada hati nak settle benda lain. saman dia dengan company lain pun semua kalah. boleh kira je berapa yang dorang betul betul menang. semua tu legal, belajar overseas, sampai Malaysia, baca statute bahasa Melayu pun tak lepas.

there's only one of the staff there yang really know my true ability there. lupa dah siapa nama that one respective colleague. suruh aku cari certain pages of a statute and print it out for him. memang itulah kerja paling aku enjoy sekali haha! hats off for that one colleague! aku pun tak de nak mintak contact number dia ke apa. tapi yang aku tahu, level dia suruh aku tu, level level boss aku je dulu. haha. 

thanks sebab suruh saya buat job yang tak pakai otak sangat waktu tu. ye orang yang suruh aku buat simple job tu yang sebenarnya ada bilik dia sendiri compare to yang duduk dalam cubicle je masa tu ramai-ramai.

wek!

bye bye