Hey there!
I am writing this using my email apps on iPhone (and now I am copying it to my blog post) since it is a lot easier drafting in here rather than to plug in the laptop while looking after my almost three months old daughter.
KeCabin by Bungalow In A Village, Melaka, Malaysia.
Alhamdulillah everything went well and I want to thank my classmates for organizing such a wonderful family vacations.
Personally, I really need this vacation to overcome my Postpartum Depression (trust me, it's getting worse day by day and I started to seek help from someone).
Being a first time mom is not easy and I really need an unconditional support, love and care from people around. Being able to be part of this family vacation really helps me in regaining my strength spiritually, mentally and emotionally since I was being surrounded by first time moms like me as well.
Honestly, there's a lot of things come across my mind after childbirth. I am thinking about what type of mom should I become. Am I going to be a true mom - soft spoken, cheerful, kind hearted, a strict mom, a pious mom, happy mom, crazy mom, a cool mom, or a bad mom.
Is there a bad mom in this world? I am so glad that I am finally get the answer by watching Bad Moms starring Mila Kunis. So yeah, I don't have to worry about changing my personality in a blink of an eye! All I need to do is just do it, enjoy every moment, and as long as I love my kid, then I am doing it right.
My best friend told me to just be myself in whatever I do. Thanks Zeema. You are the best!
So now, as long as I can remember, I am so depress thinking of it over and over again. I just have to be myself and love my daughter and my husband endlessly and...give myself a break without pushing myself off limits. May Allah ease my journey.
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Talking about our family day, I am so happy to finally know each other. We've been friends since 2012 and now most of us are holding our children. I finally meet my friends' wives and their children as well.
I never thought of having this kind of relationship myself. I mean, I was being exposed to my father's friends when we were kids and now I have my own friends to be introduced to my daughter! (It's like I'm having my own clan! Haha!) Isn't that wonderful.
I hope ummis' friends will never stop to tell you, Zulaykha that ummi loves you so much and...please tell her that she has a place in each ummis' best friends hearts every time she needs someone to talk to.
Please remember that, whenever you need and misses ummi so much, talk to ummis' close friends. They will cheer you up like how they cheer ummi up whenever ummi feels so low and down.
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| Uncles and aunts will always be there for you, Zulaykha. |
Ummi will not inherit you with millions of cash, it is this blog will guide you on how much I really loves you since the day ummi saw you in that black and white screen, you were the size of a bean! :p
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Let me see..our family day was fun. I ate a lot. We have pool side barbecues, karaokes, talking with babies session, and of course, enjoying that big 'jacket' fish! I never ate such a huge size 'ikan cencaru' in my whole entire life. Thanks abong tolong bakarkan. Hehe.
Yep, a two days and one night vacation seems too short to get to know each other's. We seriously need an extra days and nights for the next vacation and I want a "how to be a better parents experience" session! Haha. (Please take note, Ilham!)
The thing is, it is not the place that make us happy. It is the joy that we shared together - we eat together, talk to each other, being silly together, that make us a big family. No regrets!
Somehow, I have to admit that, what a great place and thanks to Ehsan, Hawa and their family for our delicious lunch, fresh seafood supplies and awesome karaoke sets! (Haha! I was like crying to my husband two weeks before and thought that I need to sing it out loud to release my final exams and childbirth stresses but then he was like...how are we going to bring along our baby to such a loud place?...)
Finally...I got the chance to sing all my anxieties out loud even though my heart sort of whispered, "is that okay to sing with my baby around?...and the other side of me was like, you deserve it honey." My voice sucks but I was so freaking relieved. LOL. I am so sorry my dear daughter. Ummi needs sometime to be alone too.
I even splashed myself into the pool few minutes before checking out. Thank you so much for supporting my unbelievable sudden behavior as a new mom, abong. (Ummi kau ni dah biol agaknya hahahaha).
Okay, I guess thats all I wanted to share. Thanks ladies for taking care of my child while I was in the kitchen, enjoying my huge 'ikan jaket' and singing my heart loud. Thank you.
Thank you for letting me to be part of your families too.
With love,
Ummi sayang Layla Zulaykha & Abah (abong), no matter what ❤
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