so i was thinking about shutting down this blog so that i can continue living my life without being judged with people around.
second thought,
no. i'm going to keep this blog with some few editing here and there cause i need to stop posting about people who hated me and started to care about my ownself.
meaning, i'm just going to brag about me and it will be a little bit bored but nobody cares.
so the new me in 2024 is not really new.
it is just me with some updated version.
hi world.
i'm sharifah mastura.
this year i'm going to be 36 and i am so excited to be a 40 (just to brag that i am a makcik2 already that people will address me as "makcik tumpang lalu.")
the worse part is i am having a baby in which it is truly exhausting!
i'm not sure it is about the age or it is about nursing him that i feel like i am a zombie in terms of...moving my body actively. i feel like my bones is going to be dislocated and i am so weak sometimes that i just wish i am being hospitalized (haha just kidding but the feeling is true though).
having a baby in my late 35 is seriously disturbing lol.
not that i really enjoys having him around but i'm losing most of my energy that i even take supplements to keep myself going for a day.
i always blame the nursing period but i think it is just me getting old.
to have a brief summarisation about the new version of me:
been married twice - 2016, 2021.
been divorce twice - 2019, 2024.
my first baby - 2017 (much easier to tell her age by years)
my second baby - 2023 (it is a no joke to be pregnant for two years and it is killing me inside to check my due date and my baby still refusing himself to be born! lol. even worse i have problems counting his age by months! haha. it is seriously confusing lol!)
i'm still haven't bleached or coloured my hair that's for sure.
i have a degree in law and a degree in legal studies.
i have a job which is a full time caregiver to my baby.
i'm a mom of two kids - a baby girl and a baby boy.
my baby girl is staying with her dadda.
so practically i am so lucky to have just me and a baby boy with me.
nothing much going on right now.
i'm reading few articles to help me develops myself.
i think that's all for now.
i'm still refusing myself to sleep to claim myself a me-time tonight.
till then,
see you in my next post!