s h a r i f a m a s t u r a : Maid of Honor

Hey there.

First of all, I want to highlight the fact that, this post was supposedly carved in my blog few months ago but I failed to carve it on time. It's my bad.

Secondly, I want to highlight that, I still felt appreciated that I was chosen as the Maid of Honor to my best friend. I mean, wow...someone did acknowledged my presence as a true friend. Thanks Ida.

Thirdly, in April 2016, my best friend, met her since I was in college, got married. Congratulations (but I still owed her, a wedding gift actually). :p

Details:-

Okay, so...I was being told that she's going to get married and I was very delighted to offer myself to be her Maid of Honor...and she said YES! (OMG, tak pernah jadi pengapit!)

Pengalaman jadi pengapit...bukanlah semudah yang disangka. Haha. I thought it was just 'kipas kipas' the pengantin. I was totally wrong. Luckily that her husband's brother ada. So, I was just following him in performing our Pengapit's duty. Well done, I've done such a good job! Haha. (What a mess).

Somehow, it's an honor to be a Pengapit to my best friend. It's like, I'm part of her family. Thanks so much Ida.

Marriage is happiness. The joy of celebrating the love between two human being.

Just one thing...that I couldn't resist. The sad feeling in my heart, that I'm going to lose another best friend. That moment when the day comes, it's like, so fast that I felt something had been taken away from me. Something priceless. Something that I really love was taken away.

I never felt this way before until my sister got married. I felt so happy when she got married but then, I had to accept that, I couldn't reach her when I need her the most. The moment when I was eager to share about my daily life, gossiping, bitching around together LOL, entering her bedroom like there's no boundaries between us...suddenly it was being taken away.

Since that day, I felt so lost.

It was such a very hard time since we lost our beloved grandfather. I still couldn't move on. I still miss him a lot. We'd been visited him in the hospital...and thought that we would lost him yet it wasn't the time. He left us unexpectedly. It was the first day of Ramadhan. (I don't know why, I still miss him so much).

Then, my sister got married. I lost another best friend.

And...few months later, my best friend, Ida got married as well. I lost another important person in my life.

It was such a very hard time...and the hardest thing is, we just lost one of our most good friend, Asri.

He left us so soon that, I will never get to invite him on my wedding day. (Tarik nafas dalam dalam...)

I couldn't imagine how am I going to live again if I lost my mom and dad.

So, it's true that, nothing last forever except The Almighty.

It was such a hard time ya. I miss them so much it hurts.

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Just want to share the moment. <3